SCARS BENEATH MY SKIN

(part I)

I looked into your Eyes

and Saw my Fascination.

I Saw what I Needed to see.

I Saw my own Creation.

I gave you All I had.

I gave you what Wasn’t mine to Give.

Now the Real you has come alive.

Now there’s No Way I can Live.

Why did you Hurt me why do you Hate me?

I loved you as my Friend.

But you Betrayed me and Lied to me.

Now I’ve got Scars beneath my Skin.

I thought we were Family.

I thought you were my Kin.

Was it All just a Sham?

To Kill me from Within.

Do you Really know love?

When, it Seems, you bask in Hates glory.

Is there Darkness that surrounds you?

Does it Tell a different Story?

Were your Words just a Pretense?

Were they because of the Original Sin?

I feel Broken and Alone.

Now, I have scars Beneath my skin.

I Thought you gave us a Connection.

You said you Loved me as your Own.

The way you made me Feel and Smile.

I Really should have Known.

I Saw all the Warning signs.

Still I put on my Rose colored glasses.

I wanted So Much for you to Love me.

Now my Heart has Burned to ashes.

You gave just a Little too much.

So you could Take it Away in the end.

Not Sure what I am Supposed to do now.

With these Scars beneath My skin.

I Believed you, I looked Up to you.

I thought you were the One.

I thought I was Growing and Maturing.

You Said I was your Son.

You said to Ask for it on Callused knees,

and Forever it will be Mine.

I Begged you and Pleaded.

But I Never saw a Sign.

I was Thirsty I was Hungry,

I heard the Growling from within.

I had Nothing it was all Gone.

Only these scars Beneath my Skin.

It’s Over it’s the End.

There’s no Miracle for Me.

Everything’s failing and stopping,

I can Barely even See.

Well you’ve Won, I am Done,

now I’m dying from Cancer.

My Spirit lay shattered in a Million pieces.

Please, won’t you even answer?

I am Frightened I am Afraid,

my Light is growing Dim.

I will Vanish and be Forgotten,

with Nothing…

but these Scars Beneath my Skin.

Please…. just ANSWER me.